
ugh yes this has been happening to me since middle school and then some of them would have the nerve to go around school saying i did stuff to them after they forced themselves on ME. i have had serious trust issues since then and basically have been stuck in compulsory heterosexuality which is really wearing on me
It just sucks bc like. I make friends, they find out my sexuality and tell me about being curious and whatnot, then it sometimes feels like we can’t get any closer because they want that deep down. Like it’s impossible. Ik this might be almost hateful or self hatred to a point but like. I’m also not very interested in dating women who are just curious, or bi/pan people that haven’t been with the same sex. Because idk, like just don’t use me man
Yeah no definitely the whole bad intentions thing like, I just ugh it’s so hard to explain the feeling like I feel bad about it but also like I don’t want to be a test subject and I feel like I kinda did that to my first ex and I regret that to this day, I loved her but I couldn’t stay in that relationship because I wasn’t true to my personality in the relationship (fronting masc 24/7 when that’s not me). But yeah like idkkk being bi is just hard these days I feel like
OH MY GOD. I am so sorry first of all dear Jesus. People fucking suck so bad. I wasn’t out til I was around 14-15 and even still, I didn’t date so I didn’t feel like I needed to and I questioned in quiet. But when I was 16 I got super drunk with my two then best friends. Both of them BEGGED all night to kiss me. They had kissed already and I even left the room for them to try and do other things but it didn’t happen allegedly. I remember just saying no & I think I’m bi over and over again
I ultimately gave them pecks to make them shut the fuck up. I am so fucking sorry that happened to you. The rumors are absolutely insane growing up and god like honestly you should just be proud of yourself for owning your identity for that long. I was just so confused for the longest time and didn’t want to hurt anyone which is honestly why I think I feel so terribly that I did anyways. This ain’t about that though. People suck