Anonymous #1 1w

Me also struggling with this I would’ve already been like hey, I washed dishes right next to that just so you know

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Anonymous #1 1w

Like oh my fuck. I’m working on controlling my impulses. SO BADLY. I learned in therapy, it’s not that I’m telling them to help them, I’m telling them to help ME. and that’s selfish. Dear GOD thank you for posting this I GET IT

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Anonymous #1 1w

Bc like if I said “hey I washed dishes” she’d be like okay?? Like 😭😭 it JUST DOESNT MATTER TO OTHER PPL LIKE OH MY GOD HOW WHY AM I LIKE THIS

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Anonymous #1 1w

NO THIS. Bc sometimes I’ll catch myself like double checking random ass things with her for validation and she’s like “girl? I don’t care” (she’s also my friend so it’s never like aggressive). And I’m ngl, I was scared abt opening your comments bc I was like “omg it’s my roommate, she found out I want to k*** her” (I DONT). Drives me fucking insane 😭😭

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Anonymous OP 1w

And then when I decide not to act on my impulses and be like “hey I washed my dishes by your food,” I’m scared there’s a hidden camera or she’s going to like “find out” and I’m going to “get in trouble.” LIKE GET A GRIPUHHHHHH

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Anonymous OP 1w

STOP NAH BC EVERYONE IS LIKE THAT LOWKEY WHEN UR KINDA CLOSE THE BLUNTNESS. COUNTLESS TIMES “idc” IM SORRY OKAY 😭 the hidden camera is SO fucking real like I promise I’m not out to get you I just almost told you but you didn’t care GAH oh my FUCK it’s so hard Jesus Christ lord

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Anonymous #1 1w

And having OCD in THIS sense is hard to grasp for me personally bc I feel like another thing lowkey is not being able to cope with having ocd too like not that you don’t have it but like imposter syndrome like GOD dear lord PLEASE I just wanna be a good person how do I “keep these things to myself” when I’m trying to not kill someone or myself (when it WONT HURT ANYONE REALISTICALLY)

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Anonymous #1 1w

Don’t hate me for this but pls understand bc ChatGPT 😔 one time I smoked a cig out of my car window bc I had them one time and then I threw it out of my window into a ditch full of snow but it was right next to a “for rent” sign and I went on ChatGPT and was like “what are the odds it catches on fire” basically 😭😭 used that shit for reassurance I HATE MYSELF FOR THATTT BUT IT CAN AND IS THAT BAD SOMETIMES

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Anonymous #1 1w

No I relate to like everything you’re saying 😭😭 when i stop my compulsions from manifesting as assurance seeking from other people, i always end up on a deep internet dive to try to prove to myself whatever i am thinking will or will not happen. I have turned to Chat in dark moments so I’m not one to judge 😭 it’s so hard to stop tho I literally don’t know how

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Anonymous OP 1w

GODDD THE DEEP DIVE LORD LIKE WHY DO I NEED SO MUCH REASSURANCE I get you lord. It is so hard. Love you queen god. OCD is so FUCKING hard it is so misinterpreted

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Anonymous #1 1w

Which leads us back to this yikyak post and I’m realizing this was just my OCD seeking validation 🫠 kill me

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Anonymous #1 1w

Love u pookie, we will get through this 🫶🏻🫶🏻

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Anonymous OP 1w

LITERALLLYYYY but at least here on yikyak it is two anons so nothing matters. ✋😫 maybe a lil so we stop trying to seek external reassurance or validation but GOD LITERALLY HOW I DK I AM STILL HEALING AND WORKING it’s okay. We are not talking to an ai chatbot it’s okay I feel so crazy so often

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