
You’re NOT lying to yourself, just try to ignore the appointment until it’s time to go. Do not cancel because then you’ll be dissuaded from trying again. You can always go to one appointment and then gauge whether or not you’d like to return- keep in mind it’s not a life long commitment when you schedule one appointment
Yea I’m gonna fill out the paperwork, maybe write down what I want to even say, and then try to forget about it. You’re right, if I cancel I won’t try again, it’s taken me years to even attempt to schedule it. The scheduling happened so fast and I didn’t have time to think, so that’s why I said yes to the appt. It’ll probs end up being a good thing!!