
i highly recommend writing a list of everything bad in the relationship and the constant cycle of badness that uve been in all these years when u find urself missing him. it can definitely help to ease any devil on ur shoulder telling u to go back to him again. u deserve so much more than this and im so proud of u, i hope u continue to choose urself and knw tht so much better is coming for u if u let it. best of luck healing