
izzy_the_hamster
It’s almost 11 pm. Part of me wants to cuddle in bed, turn on the projector, and watch Retun to Paradise, the other part of me really wants to test out my new EDC sidearm. The duality of woman lolHonestly I’d go to the range since 1 it can be good way to get past that fear (friend of mine was in the same boat) and 2 it can be pretty fun if you’re with a group. If you’ve ever shot before most will give you a half-hour ish lesson with a fake/prop gun to make sure you know how to handle it (safety stuff)
For me I’ve kinda always been around them to a certain extent since I grew up in a pretty rural area. We have a farm and ya gotta protect the animals from the wildlife sometimes (and sometimes yourself, we’ve had mountain lions come on the property before 😬) Also just hunting with my dad since I was a kid.
See I have grown up in a major city 😭 apparently my dad used to have guns but that was in his first marriage and he’s an immigrant who hates I have a military bf lmao so as soon as I asked him to take me to the range he knew it was bc of my bf and got pissy. He’s never been that weird abt my bfs before it’s just that there’s some heinous shit the us military is doing where we’re from and also all my past bfs have cheated on me so I get his apprehension this time. I have never had experience-
For me personally I’ve carted for protection from the second I was legally able to. When I was 16 I was visiting in San Francisco and got stabbed (or I guess more slashed) down my side out of absolutely nowhere by some old lady when I stepped outside for some fresh air. The most painful and terrifying moments of my life. Never again.
Ngl that’s where my bf is from-we don’t live there now but he has guns for similar reason (what he’s witnessed w ppl he loved). I just ig. My ex was just a pussy I wish I’d had more balls. And sometimes I did and I was able to fight him off but other times I just wish I could have that same power as the man two times bigger than me so he could’ve known what it felt like to be scared to die. I defended myself but he didn’t feel that. If he ever showed up again I’d want to know Im safe, that’s all