
i used to be deadass ugly. i had no idea what looked good on me at all, clothes, hairstyles, makeup habits… it made me look so bad. like i actually accentuated my worst features at every step of the road. i never had a sister, mother, or friend that shared those tips for me, i never got beauty content on social media, i really had no exposure to trends except what i saw on the shelves at the stores id heard people talk about
so until 16 years old i had such an autonomous style, while also having absolutely 0 passion for fashion. even now, idgaf at allll. i just dont have a personal taste like that at all, i dont even know how to match outfits at a simple level so to this day i just wear black pants w everything. anyways im rambling. basically i was just lowkey chopped to begin with and i routinely made it so much worse cause i had no self perception and noone to tell me not to
BUT eventually i got there. and now ive been experimenting enough that i finally know things like my ideal eyebrow shape, color palette, how to idealize my hair for ly face shape, just things that were taking off points for me before, and are now adding points. so the change is incredible.
and my experience in life has changed! i notice so many more men in class a little nervous around me instead of speaking over me like they used to. i even had a famous youtuber like scout me out from my instagram and kept inviting me to his house. like how did i go from so friendzoned by even ugly men in middle school, like just not even registered as a girl pretty much, to lowkey experiencing pretty privilege