
i am angry that we didn’t talk it out a little more even if it might not have helped and i am angry that he is being smart and not giving in to my pleads for try again but god i want it to work out and i want to be happy again and i want to be held by my handsome boy more than anything and it is all so overwhelming. i’ve never been broken up with before and he was my first everything. i am so distraught and i miss him ugh
i haven’t decided if it’s made it harder or not— our breakup was mostly mutual (i wasn’t happy and it was starting to really hurt him) & we want to keep eachother around because we both really do think we make great friends at the least and he is the most caring and patient and kind ever and still is. i am deeply grateful to have him in a way still but it sucks when he is the one to tell me that i need to focus on myself for a little bit