
and i don’t have the slightest interest in everyone else. i genuinely made it a point to hang out with some of them in only group settings because i got the vibe and yet they’re still messaging a lot, and well ive been told by friends of friends that so and so likes me, so i gotta figure out how to turn them down? but no one’s been direct in asking me out so idk the point is, i really wanted these specific guys as friends and now i think i need to just let that wish go to avoid leading them on
and the guy i do like. we made out on a few occasions. over a few months… that should’ve stopped me from falling in deep but yeah. but then in between our makeouts, he’d just pretend like nothing happened and well we are still friendly and all that but it’s like why string me along so long. and then be constantly talking to others. and it’s so depressing for me. the ONE guy i want. why even kiss me in the first place if he likes me physically and seems to like as a friend, what is missing 😞