
and its so hard to explain this shit bc its like yeah my mom did major damage to my self worth and mental health but she never beat me* (unless spankings count), she never called me a bitch, she just made sure to show me i’m most lovable when i’m unseen, unheard, and better when i’m serving them
both my older brothers have moved out and id have moved out by now if i hadnt been unemployed seeking work for a year. she doesnt say “you cant eat” but she says “i made two porkchops for dinner, maybe we can split one if you want any” and i have hated pork chops all my life and just idk being offered leftovers like a dog feels kinda strange 😭