
And I feel guilty for feeling like this but he speaks down to both me and my mom, never our dad. Fucking sexist piece of shit. I wish we had a better relationship. I resent him for being so sexist and cruel. I hate how he treats strangers with more kindness than me and mom. I am repulsed by his lack of empathy. I hate when he’s sometimes nice cuz that makes me feel guilty for being angry with him.
My older sister acts this same way. She does nice things and then gets angry and her doing one nice thing doesn’t make you forget all the bad things she did to you. She has kids now and she treats them so badly. She’s so nice to people we don’t know and then is horribly mean to her family.