
Im bipolar and it always comes back even if i do everything right to minimize blowback. Im chronically bored and angry. I don’t actually give a shit about other people so I’ll never have fulfilling relationships. Ill never have a family of my own and I can’t stand working so when all my peers do that stuff I’ll go ahead and exit but only after breaking people’s kneecaps and traveling the world and going on adventures and raping people with objects out of spite not lust.
I did drop out. All I do is watch reels all day. The other thing that makes me happy are extreme activities and extreme sports but I don’t the motivation to do anything. Maybe some of it is personal failing and laziness but my god is it hard to get out there. I’ve been depressed and mixed episodes since I was in middle school and now that’s all I know. I haven’t done shit in 10 yrs
I was kind of harassed by my brother but I’m not sure how much of it was real or in my head. All I know is that it made me literally get diagnosed with schizophrenia incorrectly. Well my personality features contributed as well to the misdiagnosis like hostility and anger and resentment and suspiciousness and rage. It felt like I was dying sometimes
You know, I honestly do the same thing every day but I’m gonna change it because it really is affecting my mental health, but I would advise you to try something. You’ve never tried before like maybe art like pottery that’s very therapeutic also maybe even try making your music, even if that’s something you would never think you would likeyou never know