
i have no interest in that at the moment or maybe even ever. and i’m already confused about my sexuality and it’s not helping. i can’t tell anyone because the town is small and word gets around what if they get the wrong idea and im outed to my homophobic family. fuck there’s so many feelings that i can’t even explain to anyone
i’m the youngest in the family so all the attention is on me to start having kids and settling down and it’s so much pressure. not to mention the fact that i feel guilty just for having these thoughts because i should be a faithful devoted christian wife but i feel like that isn’t me