
I love you first and foremost but I also watched my moms plunge into alcoholism when I was in my teens (took her to rehab, 3 years this summer!) and my older sister (25) has been going down that road for a few years now under similar circumstances. What I can tell you is: nobody blames you for experiencing something you cannot understand and seem to resolve, you are still deeply loved and supported, and that letting guilt/regret weigh you down will only make it harder to move forward-
i’m so sorry you had to experience that and tysm for the rlly sweet ily. i’m only 18 and my biggest fear js becoming a failure. i used to be so against drinking but then all of my friends became pretty big drinkers and party-goers snd i just wanted to have fun. now my depression is back and my anxiety is just awful. i can’t sleep (clearly cus it’s 4 am) and im worried if i continue ppl will walk away
and be proud of any progress, big or small. I know it’s easy to have regret, guilt, anxiety, depression, or those moments of delirium. At the same time, understand that you have the power. Just because something feels like it was uncontrollable doesn’t mean it has to control us. If nothing changes, nothing changes. I can promise you that you will never regret spending more of your life doing things you don’t remember, things you regret, or things that weren’t YOU. Take yourself seriously baby
Listen ladybug. I know it’s hard to be caught between wanting to spend time with your friends and not wanting to do what your friends are doing. But again, if you never try to find the other options outside of isolation or drinking, you’ll keep going through it. Your friends don’t need you to drink. They need you around, and you need them. They love you. Besides, if they only like you when you’re drunk, they’re not really your friends. Same goes for boys. There are hundreds of other things to do
You’ve got a lot left to give, but the hard thing about anxiety and depression are that they take a lot out of you. You are young. Now is not the time to look back and regret. It is, however, the time for you to grow. Nobody will knock on your door tomorrow and expect you to have everything figured out. The important part is the process. Reflect. Imagine. Be open. At the end of the line, you’ll always have known you did it for you. Nobody regrets that
When my mom first got sober, I was around 19/20. My friends would come over or my sister would be in town and we’d want to have drinks at home or whatever. My mom told me that it was hard for her, and that was it. No more drinks. It’s different now that she’s had time and has grown in seeing her options (non-alcoholic stuff, she’s tried CBD/THC drinks, mocktails, and setting boundaries).
Alcoholism is an addiction and a disease, and whether or not it’s come to that point, the negatives of drinking are still there. Trust me, I get it too. I had to pull away big time from drinking. It made me anxious, it made me depressed, it made me feel embarrassed, and dizzy when I put my head on my pillow. But, the grass is greener. Actually. Reducing/quitting drinking is easier when you realize there’s not much in it for you, and the people who love and support you will still be around.