As a kid I thought I could have a normal life, you know have experiences and stuff. But it feels like every time I tried or had hope for dating it failed. Like I was reminded of how I felt as a kid, unloved and lonely. I feel like the idea of me experiencing romance or just feeling secure in myself is a delusion at this point. It sucks cuz I’ve tried so hard(therapy,meds, etc) it feels like nothing will change how I feel.

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