I think #6 really missed the part where it was a hypothetical option and not being forced on you. As an SA survivor, I have a full time job and would still choose that to cover rent and keep extra money in the bank. Itās like being mad at any sex worker for choosing that life just because trafficking exists. Itās a touchy subject but anyone should be able to do whatever they want with their own body.
Did something happen to you? Did anyone ever yk? Something had to happen for you to be this way. Iām sorry if something did Iām not a therapist so I canāt help you. But I know some online therapist I think you can use. You need serious serious therapy. Iām not even going to be mean I just hope you heal. Peace to you and stay away from the snow