Not that u asked but I'll spill my guts in ur comments if it helps: I've gone so much of my life repressing diff emotions in order to be a good kid or fit in and now it's like I'm an adult and i struggle so badly with letting people in

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I notice abuse in others and have always helped rewire their own abuse. For instance, my best friend APOLOGIZES for crying or for venting or for being angry. It would kill me every time she said it. She used to say it more but over the years I’ve been conditioning her with only love and redirection every time she apologizes.

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When you’re helping rewiring someone’s brain after trauma and or abuse. It’s like helping a toddler manage their emotions except the difference is you’re breaking routine that has been embedded in someone’s head for years. So it’s not as easy as breathing techniques or modeling behavior when feeling angry or sad. It is correcting and reassuring that what a person feels matters! I’m sure there are a ton of people who apologize for having emotions, I see it more than not. It breaks my heart.

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I’m just in full rant mode because I’ve been literally flipped upside down to the reaction I have with how someone treats me because of the trauma I’ve endured.

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You did what you needed to do you can be free

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Our struggles are different but just no ur not alone brother

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Now I know why it took me 4 years to leave a narcissist… and 8 years to get over someone. I was literally a wounded fawn in the middle of a meadow and they could smell my weakness….

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Sounds normal, you realized something you didn’t see after a long time and now don’t know how to feel about it. If you tie part of your self worth to being good at recognizing and helping people manage their emotions, seeing it in yourself feels like an oversight that’s making you doubt your own competence in recognizing other people’s emotions.

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