Tbh I kinda became an alcoholic for a few years to keep up that delusional glamour over life. When I was constantly half brain-dead and incapable as a person, everything seemed much more beautiful and hopeful. Now that I'm sober and back to cold hard reality, yeah, ts is ROUGH. Humanity is so fucking wack and stupid, and this world is so laughably evil. Idk how to cope 😭

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