Genuinely feel like I'm losing my mind sometimes. Like actually getting paranoid that I'm going to have some kind of mental break and go into psychosis. I don't think I am but I can't stop my anxiety about it. I just can't think clearly anymore.
Not to mention the way I try to cope has gotten increasingly worse. I scare and disgust myself with what I make because I think it could genuinely get me in horrible trouble if anyone ever saw.