
I even had like real hints of feeling better in waves like obvi as each month went by like 7/ 8 months after I was like okay sorta yay sometimes haha. but ig now it’s weird i’m finally starting to feel my feelings expire on a deeper level. but i’m jus being real I will always be sentimental about every connection i’ve had. it’s just crazy how each year passes and more processes in my brain about the breakup and how it was obvi actually for the good
I also did have a good handful of little crushes between then and now, nothing as strong and deeply as involved, but truly I have fallen in love with being on my own and my independence like never before. I actually also ended up in a career I am passionate in that never would’ve happened if we stayed together. i’ve fallen in love with putting all my love into being my best self. being my best self so if it is right I can attract someone who meets me in terms of also being a high quality person
if that makes sense. but like I really do love my independence and never have been a relationship person. but at the same time I am open to a relationship again only if it feels like obvi it is meant to be, being logical and also feeling right lol. so to me it has been so important to jus solidify myself as much as possible so if I ever have a family I can be selfish and feeling like I took advantage of being single / independent before locking in to something so serious