
As far as the reactions to having fantasies young I feel like the shit that peaks your interest isn’t always sexual but you definitely like it in a sexual context like ok I dunno if some of the real reasons why I like certain things is related to control/loss of control, feeling wanted/loved despite X thing, or whatever so seeing Batman tied up on tv as a kid and being like hmmmmmm doesn’t neccasirly mean you liked it as a kid sexually but that it could be something you like to explore sexually
def more common than most people realize, like to some extent there’s laws in place that’re supposed to protect a child’s privacy in clinical settings but they aren’t always upheld and there’s a lot of “loopholes” that’s stressful, ugh. I mean I think sometimes kids just naturally explore sexuality on their own with same-age peers but obviously for safety reasons they shouldn’t be sending Anyone nude photos 😰
Like what I mean is like for the Batman example maybe people liked the power dynamics or loss of control or something but we explore those interests sexually despite it stemming from a non sexual reason or like maybe need- like idk maybe you feel like you do a lot on the daily so being able to lose control and get wrecked in bondage is your outlet for that need.
I was forced into therapy at age 8 (also was being abused, but not sexually) and had a very similar experience. Therapist would meet with my parents first, then met with me and would just yell at me for the whole session based on whatever it was my parents told her I did. It made it hard for me to allow myself to get therapy when I needed it later on. They rlly need to fix the childhood therapy system bc if your parents aren’t on your side your therapist won’t be either.