
Dude I'm kinda in the same boat 😭 for some reason I'm always the most attracted to the WORST human beings ever Like I look across the sea of good, normal people and am like 'Hmmm that 40yr old severe alcoholic that spends his free time selling drugs and is on his 10th suicide attempt of the year. I want THAT ONE 😍'
Maybe that, maybe it's also bc I used to be a wildly unhinged delinquent, and am now healed and healthy, and deep down I yearn for my old life of sin 😭 Like I went from an unmedicated manic party animal who drank my weight in liquor on the daily, did any drug I could find, etc etc to a zen health-conscious gym rat who hasn't had a single drink in over a year I haven't even kissed anyone in like 1.5 years 😭