I’m the same way & I’ve never had any sexual trauma but the way so many men talk ab nothing but their gross dicks & explicitly talk ab using my body for their gross dicks without even knowing me as a person has been enough. 🤢
I know it’s because of the trauma and PTSD but no matter how much therapy I take sex is just disgusting to me. Like even the idea of dealing with cum and stuff makes me involuntarily retch.
I don’t think it’s fixable at this point.