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I thought my first year of college was going to be so good but it’s the opposite. I wanted to meet new people but all I have is paranoia and distrust of people, and also have been in a depressive state for months. So not good. :(
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Anonymous 3d

The change could be a lot to manage. But keep your head up you got it.

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Anonymous 3d

:( I had a terrible first year of college too. It turned out that I was friends with all the wrong people. Some of them were passive-aggressive to me all the time and denied it, so I thought I was just paranoid and mentally ill. I was terrified of not having friends in college. It did get a lot lot better once I found my people. Hope you’re in some kind of counseling

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Anonymous replying to -> #2 3d

Thank you so much. I really hope to reach the point where I’m not so fixated on what people think of me and able to find company with myself w/o being surrounded by a large friend group. I am attending counseling at the moment and actually switched to telehealth counseling because I realized that I need more frequent sessions.

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Anonymous replying to -> #1 3d

It’s not about the change necessarily, but the series of events from last semester that has put my mind in a terrible place.

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Anonymous replying to -> #1 3d

Also thank you so much for the encouragement, I will try to keep my head up:)

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 3d

This has been a struggle for me too, but I have gotten better with hard work. I’m 26 now, my freshman year was 2017-18. I still struggle with being self-conscious and feeling that I need constant attention/companionship. But it’s a lot better than it was and I’m still working on it. I go through periods where it’s easier for me to enjoy being alone. I can tell you that it’s much easier than it used to be for me to feel that I don’t have a life-or-death dependency on other people, especially not

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Anonymous replying to -> OP 3d

huge groups of peers who I don’t even know particularly well. I hope you find comfort very soon. 💙

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Anonymous replying to -> #2 3d

Thank you. I am slowly trying to get out of this depressive state, and I hope to be in the same state as you where I’m not worried about people. I have a feeling that it will get better for me. ❤️‍🩹

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