
i haven't had a healthy relationship before yk? like i know from a logical perspective she's given me no reason to sound the alarm, but in the past i've seen that my partners weren't as great as they seem by this point and i haven't gotten that w her yet. she still seems as amazing as the day we met but it's so hard to trust when ive been hurt so much before yk?
i plan on it, but we're long distance for the holidays and it's something i'd rather talk about in person w her. over text it's much harder to get your point across and i wanna make sure she understands that i still care about her and don't want to leave, but that i just want her to know that i'm afraid because of the past