
I mean I know why. It's from countless life experiences. What I see/hear on the daily. What I've been through. What my friends and family have been through. I just need men to prove themselves as non-evil malignant monsters. I'll think I finally found some good guys and get so happy, only for them to wreck that stupid illusion after a matter of time 🥲 Yk actually, maybe I just need to be exposed to men less. Maybe then I'll be able to delude myself once the reality is removed.