I've always wanted to be with a woman, as a woman. But I'm also not very sexual. My husband (potentially to be ex soon) will continue to ask me for sex or touching me until I give in or get mad. I wished he'd respect me saying no...
I hate that it took me so long to realize that that was very wrong, that he wasn't entitled to my body because we were married. It took having friends who eventually listened and I trusted to discover that.