
🙁 That sounds incredibly painful. You don't deserve the shitty parental hand you've been dealt, I'm so sorry. It sounds like you need to speak your piece to your parents. Be very honest about everything, whether it be via text, call, or in person. Then simply dip and let them sit with it for a while. Don't argue, no fight, just open communication from you, and let it marinate.
"I love you guys so much. I kill myself trying to make you proud and meet your standards and do as much as I can to help. But honestly, I feel genuinely neglected/abandoned. It feels like nothing I do is enough, and it feels as if my own parents don't love or respect me. And ts is debilitating. Everyone just wants love from their parents. So I think I need to step back. I'll always love you, regardless of how you feel about me.' Or something And if they don't take it well/get angry-
At your own pace, of course. Good luck, I wish you the best 🙏 Sometimes, even parents get lost in their own ego and tunneled perspectives, and just need to be slapped with the genuine truth to wake up. I hope that life starts treating you well, and your owed good karma is manifested soon