
It’s understandable that you’d feel this way based on your background, but please understand that use of sex toys or masturbation is not gross or wrong in any way. There’s a reason it feels good, it’s good for your body. Orgasms have been clinically proven to have real health benefits. Pleasure’s not really your motivation for using a vibrator, but regardless it is perfectly normal, safe, and morally acceptable to be doing so. Good luck going forward!