
I fear not being able to multitask in several areas of responsibility. For example, NOW I am a student, friend, employee, volunteer, gf (kinda), athlete, and I notice I tunnel vision things where I can only lock in on one thing/everything else gets neglected & I fear not being able to handle being a mom, wife, daughter in law/daughter, aunt, friend, sister, etc. in equal capacities & I’m gonna get overwhelmed and neglect or yell or shutdown. So whatever all of that means is what I fear in Audhd
If you fear it it’s a good indicator not to do it. You can easily pass on your autism. Even if you don’t pass it on to your offspring, life will be that much harder regardless. Children are not the answer to happiness, and you will want to rip out your hair on many occasions. Some autistic parents even can’t handle it to the point they contemplate suicide.
kids are more resilient than you think. my parents fucked up a lot of shit, yours probably did too. i still love them dearly. hormonal changes literally drive people crazy so i wouldn’t beat yourself up so bad about being so emotional during pregnancy. i’m sorry that you’ve had such a tough experience and i hope it turns out better for you in the future love