My therapist says that I filter my words so meticulously that I’ve lost the ability to tap into my emotions 💀 she asked if I have ever once said the first thing that came to my mind

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Forcing eye contact and restraining myself from mentioning interests even when I really want to. Unless it’s someone I’m close with.

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Masking is very often not a conscious skill just something you do naturally to survive. Think about it less as what do you do to mask symptoms and what do you do to fit in better. Like what are you preventing yourself from doing and how do you adjust your personality and how you act around others. I don’t choose when I’m masking more or less intensely but I have some times when I force myself to stay still or make eye contact and react to what someone is saying or have a different voice

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She said something about how I just handle situations logically instead of intuitively, but how is that something one can even know? What is intuition? I thought I couldn’t be autistic since I don’t consciously mask and still have friends and friendly interactions. But I was diagnosed, so I am confused. People only find me quirky, not super different.

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I have no idea if I do or not

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