
I get that unfortunately:( I've been in a similar situation It's hard to navigate but I just kind of kept to myself/talked with my therapist abt it and a few close friends (who weren't from the same area, so they didn't have as much bias) but trust me, your reaction is normal and not one to truly feel too guilty about! Life and death are weird and the feelings of grief and sadness aren't always gonna show up! Especially in a situation like yours