
Being a virgin at this age is basically unheard of for “normal” people. I’ve never been asked out and it not have been as a joke or a dare. I have never been flirted with (genuinely, at least. the fetishization I *have* received is outright sexual harassment), never been asked out/been on a date, never kissed, nothing. I feel like a fucking freak show every day of my fucking life.
My extended family still thinks I’m going to “get married and have babies”. I can’t even find someone who would dare to share the same fucking space as me. It’s like I’m fucking diseased or something, and everyone else can tell and they stay away. This life is so miserable and so lonely, and I’ve realized it will never get better. I was a fool for ever thinking it would. I am ready for this misery to end.