Autistic girl community on Sidechat | Idk if this is just me but smiling is literally the hardest fucking thing for me. Like a casual smile when you pass someone or see a friend or wave like I CANT DO IT. I have literally practiced in a mirror and I can’t I look so awkward and dumb 😭

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Autistic girl community 18h

Idk if this is just me but smiling is literally the hardest fucking thing for me. Like a casual smile when you pass someone or see a friend or wave like I CANT DO IT. I have literally practiced in a mirror and I can’t I look so awkward and dumb 😭

Anonymous 18h

Have you ever noticed how many casual social interactions you’re expected to smile in? BECAUSE I HAVE. It’s literally the bane of my existence I can’t do it and it stresses me out endlessly. Don’t even get me started on smiling in photos. I hate looking so unapproachable but I can’t just casually smile ? And I’ve been so hyper aware of it and insecure for like 10 years now. I can’t even do like a little closed mouth smile matter of fact that looks worse 😭

Anonymous 18h

Oh I’m aware that 90% of the time whatevr I think I’m doing, it’s not anything sufficient enough to be recognized as a genuine smile, but I also don’t care

Anonymous 12h

I’ve become ok with being the mean unapproachable girl sometimes. I’m very rude. I just don’t always smile. I can still be polite with an RBF and one of my favorite customers keeps a stank face and has a super rude tone but she’s the sweetest angel!!!!

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OP 18h

And like when you’re a pedestrian and a car lets you cross the street and you’re supposed to do a little smile and wave and the idea of doing it makes me SO anxious I never can as much as I want to and the one time I tried I did it so badly I was literally anxious about it for the rest of the day like I looked so stupid why can I literally not just be a normal person and do easy interactions omfg