
I never showed it but a few of the guys really freaked me out when I was younger. They were mean or did creepy things. When I and a lot of the other girls in our class started to get boobs but didnāt realize a bunch of the guys made a ranking for ābest titsā even though we were like 12. I hated sitting near them after that bc it was like the guys I grew up with who were supposed to be my friends didnāt see me as an actual person.
girl perspective: i was always a super well behaved kid and teachers would intentionally put me next to the kids (usually boys) who always misbehaved and would bully/purposely annoy and distract me because the teachers hoped my good behavior would rub off on them and that iād keep them accountable, which shouldāve been the teachers job. it genuinely happened so many times my parents got involved and i was no longer allowed to be placed in classes with certain kids
Cause some of them were mean and didnāt know how to keep their hands to themselves. I was always the agreeable girl student who never fussed, so I always got stuck sitting next the boy who wouldnāt stop talking, touching and poking me. It later developed into a serious problem of me never advocating for myself. I realized that I shouldnāt have been the buffer for disruptive male behavior.
When I first came to the US in 5th grade everyone always complained that I smelled (teacher literally bought me deodorant), had dandruff, was annoying, and that my clothes were gay (we were poor and they were donated clothes, some pink and sparkly), but over time I learned hygiene, human decency, and developed my own interests. Itās unfortunate that itās a semi-shared experience with immigrants who donāt know the way of America and have to learn as they go since their parents donāt know either.
it honestly might have had nothing to do with you. could be that she had personal stuff going on at home and just couldnt handle any other changes, could be that she was having a hard day and didnt want to move away from her friends, maybe another guy had just said something gross to her, etc.. or, as others pointed out, maybe you or your friends were creepy. i remember a guy in middle school saying he'd never seen me w/ my shoulders relaxed, and i thought "yeah, its bc of you"