
The thing is that everywhere I go, there are couples everywhere. Women that are exactly my type to a T. I’d love to be happy for both of them but it sucks. I feel so little, I don’t feel like a man, I don’t feel good about myself. I hate myself. It’s that bad. And nothing I do can make a shred of a difference
I know it sounds stupid, but you can’t let yourself think there’s nothing you can do. Speaking from experience when I say it’ll only make you more miserable. Feeling like shit isn’t gonna help, so sometimes you gotta distract yourself however you can. Lean on your friends, make new ones online, etc etc. a partner could help but if you truly feel like shit, even she couldn’t fix the self hate. I’m sorry you feel so dogshit bro, and I know nothing I’m saying is easy or fast
I don’t hate myself. I do good in a lot of things and I enjoy it. Like I just came back from pickleball and practiced screwball serves and felt fucking amazing. Like honestly I feel pretty damn great with myself and my capabilities. What I don’t feel great is the lack of affection in my life. And it kills me to see others in it but not myself. No matter how much or how well I distract myself