
Been in this position- Therapy is always helpful though I know it can be hard to get access to. There is always resulting to friends or family to talk it out. Or going to SO yourself and saying “hey this is something I’m struggling with”, if he really is the love of your life he will be understanding and do what he can to help. Then there is finding hobbies. I got really into crafts and walking. It’s a really lonely but chaotic thing to experience this so I really hope you find something🫶
Well and the bad part is that me and my bf are at a good place after having our argument phase. But now I am genuinely convinced that there’s something going on I cannot see although I genuinely think he’s just the love of my life. But like my nervous system doesn’t know how to regulate the lack of chaos enough to where I had a panic attack yesterday over legit nothing. There’s nothing there to dig at, we’re perfect now and my body hates it. And idk what to do
The bad thing is that I’m fine out of a relationship. Relationships just trigger that trauma for me so I need to figure it out. And I’m blessed to be with a kind and patient man who understands that I’m fucked up. But I still don’t feel like it’s fair to him to have to deal with it, thus turning to the internet for ideas
Me and my boyfriend have talked about it and he is well aware of the issue. Enough to where if I subconsciously start picking a fight due to it he’ll ask me if this is a genuine problem or if I’m just picking a fight because things are too good. I just want to actually fix and resolve it as to not have it be a continuous issue