that sounds so incredibly draining i’m so sorry. you deserve what you are looking for and nothing less. maybe it’s best to switch up the kinda guy you usually go for. maybe look for more maturity in partners, guys that aren’t gonna be scared off by something real. or tbh maybe take a break from dating so you don’t get burnt out. a lot of men will grow out of this stuff, you might be better off with someone a lil older. either now or until you’re older yourself