Eventually I mustered the courage to ask him to Prom(he was a grade below so he wouldn’t ask me), and he even seemed to wait after practice nonchalantly on his phone(everyone left already). And I was a horrible stuttering mess but got the words out. And. He told me he had a girlfriend 🥲. But the whole time I was blabbering before that, he waited patiently with the softest gaze and he didn’t check his phone or look absent once during then. And he ended up saying thank you so much for asking tho.

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My last day of track we met eyes and he seemed to gaze a bit, then again when I was in my grad robes and he was at practice on the field, and lastly when I gave him my thank you letter. He was the one who inspired me, and I had to let him know before I left, yk? Also I was fully respectful of the gf, cause it could be read as a platonic, respect thank you card. I had asked him to meet up and he agreed and even wished me a good summer break. :))

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I made a couple moves over insta and sent him funny reels ab our shared interests and that reminded me of him. He’d always reply with a couple well thought out words, even some corny quotes, and would like my comment and the reels each time 🥺. There were a couple other things, like I’d catch him gazing at me then he’d whip his head away stupidly fast sometimes(near the end), or glance away nonchalantly. All this and more happened and I really respected him for all of his qualities too.

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I finally put the pieces together way too late tho. He would always glance at me whenever he made a joke, and was talking with other people, and I would catch him gazing at me with the cutest smile on his face. We were on the same track team and he would do this thing where he’d lift up his shirt to flex and show off a bit (sound kinda silly but was super cute). He was the sweet and shy type, and could talk easily with everyone, but got short and tense when I’d talk with him.

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We had this silent flirtation over Instagram stories where he’d post a track clip from his race and I’d react to it 👏, then he’d heart that, and sometimes I would say good luck you got this! And he’d like that too. Then with the stories, he started to put music over each one when he’d previously posted silent or original audio with them. Each of the songs had lyrics that spoke to our situation. Hard to explain but I could but I don’t wanna spam even more.

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Yess

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But I’d post my own stories and add the most yearning romantic music over them and he’d see each one 🥺 idk that part sounds kinda delulu but it fit

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The two days after that I saw him around school and he looked really depressed. Then I started trying to act normal and since these were the last days of my track season, we actually talked a little bit then and it went back to normal, if not a bit better. During our banquet, I knew who his gf was by now, and she was one of those very assertive types who started talking to him then sorta latched onto him. She also was pretty fake with me. And he’s the type to be too nice and not say no.

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Yk how you can clock a fake smile? I swear every insta pic he takes w just him and his gf feel fake. And I’ve seen pics of him with his friends side by side and he’s absolutely beaming, yk? Idk

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Sorry I was so locked on dumping my memories I missed this 😭🙏

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