
What you're describing sounds like social anxiety. Do you have issues with connecting and speaking go men as well? I would suggest you maybe speak to a therapist or psychiatrist, or read some books or novels by them. They are good resources to help you overcome your anxiety. To further help lead you away from incel behavior is to simply stop expecting romance or sex. It's not gonna magically change your life if you receive it.
try making friends with women with zero romantic intention for now. you'll come to realize that they're far less different than men when it comes to socializing/communication. if you can learn to make friends with women comfortably, you'll be way more equipped and confident when you find the right woman. also, put urself in more environments where ur likely to interact with people. get your friends to go w/ you to bars, parties, hangouts, etc so that you can get introduced to more people by them
Are the facts that you’re a “useless chud,” you don’t blame women for that, but you do blame women for misandry? And when you say you blame women for misandry, do you mean women as a collective for misandry that exists in the world, or do you mean individual women when they are misandrist?