Adding on to this. I hate that I can cuddle with my friends, hold hands, and even give/recieve forehead kisses, until they get into an ACTUAL relationship. Bc that with someone like me could never be a real relationship. I'm just an intimacy placeholder.
I hate feeling like I will never be worthy of a relationship bc i'd be depriving my partner of something so natural. I feel like I'll always be a backup for intimacy until someone better (who is willing to do those things) comes along.