every time i try to trust a doctor they make me regret it and when i go without seeing one for a few months at a time i think its all in my head and just anxiety so i see one again and BOOM i get screwed over immediately
and i’m disabled so i can’t just go without, i wouldn’t have been disabled in the first place if my doctors were better. this can’t just be my anxiety i am getting so fucked by the system right now