
She haaates it and just blames me for her not being able to talk to me cuz she is mad but wont say why for long enough that i get anxious and then when she does finally tell me she describes how not telling me built resentment and then i do actually have a panic attack. Its a terrible cycle and now she says she cant trust me to be able to handle conversation cuz i make it about myself (have a panic attack that i very desperately do not wish to have)