
I tried to go back to sleep to wait for my next alarm and he just kept talking while I ignored him. When my next alarm went off, I accessed how my body was and found myself to be feeling sick and in an arthritis flare up and told him that I didn’t need to go to Spanish today because that’s my first class and he told me that I wasn’t allowed to skip it and kept whining about me getting up so I went ahead and forced myself and then he kept trying to hug me and kiss me and I just wanted to
Shove him and tell him to leave me alone for five minutes so I could breathe and I didn’t because then he’d be sad and I don’t have the energy for him being sad right now so I just let him and I love him so much but I am so ready for him to have to go home this weekend because he has been in my dorm room for two straight weeks and I am so so tired of having to mask when I’m feeling bad to keep him from being upset because I just don’t have the mental capacity to handle a big talk right now
I can’t, the last time I had finally worked up the nerve to ask him to go back to his dorm for a couple days so that I could just have some alone time to rest, before I could say anything, he started a conversation about how he doesn’t feel comfortable or welcome in his dorm because his roommate just never says anything and always acts like it’s an inconvenience to have him there and I don’t want him to be uncomfortable and upset so I just never mentioned it
He usually goes home on the weekends but he stayed last weekend and so it’s just been two solid weeks of zero alone time, our schedules are really similar so when I’m out of class, so is he, he has more time alone in my room than I do because I have two jobs plus classes, so I’m only really there a couple afternoons and night time and periodically throughout the day when I come back to walk my dog