I don’t blame you for not wanting to, I get it, I mostly struggle with constantly wanting to lie and manipulate people but I try really really hard not to and can recognize when I am subconsciously; I also struggle but thrive in social situations if that makes sense; and ofc when I’m mad in particular I like get really secretive and hold hella grudges and love revenge (but not in a violent way), most times tho I talk to the person cuz I don’t wanna be a sociopath :(