
Never dated anyone had a very toxic friendship that truly ruined me and caused me significant ptsd been hard to trust others again let alone the vulnerability that comes with dating. Therapy never really was my thing I was in and out of it as a child but it felt pointless just to pay to talk about my problems without any real solution. I can talk to myself for free and get the sane result but maybe I just have not had a really good therapist that works for me yet.
Yeah that is one aspect I appreciate about therapy is that they are a third party outside view without biased. I dunno why but over time my brain sort of decided to talk things out inside my head and I see it from multiple perspectives to make sure i know where my thoughts stem from. I try to see if it’s from trauma, anxiety, or something that’s definite. I worry that I’m just past a point where I could change my thinking. I haven’t felt the need or desire for a romantic relationship in a good 7
Or 8 years. I think maybe I got too comfortable just being with just myself I stopped trying. I’m the same way with friends I don’t seek them out and fine without them but I don’t mind it if people try to be my friend but I do think you are right that I should try therapy. Just the post within itself proves even a little part of me thinks I need it too even if the majority of myself doesn’t feel like it. It’s the subconscious part that knows I need it. Thanks for your insight!