
Fear of rejection is natural as well as the want for a relationship but honestly a lot of the issues you probably are having in your head are due to how you’re focused on the idea of a relationship. Like try to just meet new people and treat them like you would any other friend, and eventually I’m sure someone you meet might draw other feelings or who knows they might ask you. But thinking about it more as meeting new friends should help curb the anxiety and trouble with holding conversation.
Idk how much this will help but I know from experience as cliche as it is, I found my partner when I stopped looking and I wasn’t expecting it and they are now my best friend and partner. And I think that is a good goal to work for. But it’s up to you. Dating is difficult right now so in my opinion I’d just avoid traditional dating sites and stuff and just go out and have fun with people and see what connections naturally form